Where is the BLACK PUSSY Housewives looking nsa Philadelphia Pennsylvania Christmas to you too Hope you have a nice Christmas too and glad you are happy. I never wanted to try to hurt you or your family. I am sorry you are caught in between things as you obviously feel like it since you felt compelled to write something. You know every detail of the story and so it is weird that you feel like I am bugging your dad or 'worried' about something because I had to make an announcement that I am just living my life. It's also so much more than obvious that she lives in a state of worry. My presence is intimidating even my absence is intimidating as I am finding, and that is something I wish I could change. It's not something I want. If I could stop this and protect those I care about I would. Yes, he is someone I care about and you too and of course my own family and someone else's too. You can not control his heart and he knows what he wants. Yeah, he is not here with me but he is on the phone with me all day so, I guess his head and heart are what you can't control. I know you have said much more mean and belittling things to me on here and played . And for that I am sorry you wasted such energy on hating or disliking me, someone who doesn't return any disdain for you. I feel like you have been brainwashed against me but that's just something I think- maybe I am wrong. He is not with me because he wants to keep everybody happy even at the cost of, his own happiness. So glad, you are happy this Christmas. And he has been a big part of my life for decades period. And he will continue to always be part of my life in some way shape or form. Accepting that fact would be to anyone around him. You know you are so wrong about me. I haven't the time to go on and try to change your mind because I haven't spoken to you in person. That is something you would hate because then you would see how nice and great and loving and mature and lively and giving and patient of a woman I am. He and I have a unique relationship weather the world chooses to accept it or believe it or not. It will always be. I know he is with her. Haha, he s me every morning to tell me about his life and we talk daily. He s me at night and takes all my s anytime. In Previous years he started with the arguing and anger but at least he admitted he was wrong and is changing and growing as I am too. As far as married and , those are the spins that have been put on the situation for reasons beyond my comprehension and you know that too very well. I will never go along with them because I am stronger than that. People listen to what I say and think and the smart one's wait for it to come from me before they listen to hearsay and rumors. So if I say no it's not like that then that's what they know is the truth. So no I am not married, lol. He's not either, haha. I was dating others but your dad really made a huge earthquake deal about it and pleaded with me to stop so I said ok, I will talk to him and we can see where it goes, but then I put the breaks on it because of reasons between me and him. I have never been a 'home wrecker' and if anything have been the one who has been 'home wrecked' time and time again if we are going to put 'married' spins on it. I have too much self-respect to allow myself to be in that kind of position as the other woman. You are not blind and can see with your own eyes the things he says and writes and plays for me. You yourself know how much he is truly in love with me. And to all the mean things you probably wrote to me and those other people, 90% of the time I was and have been the mature one and didn't say anything back. Half the time I didn't know it was even you or her. I tried very hard to tell myself you were more mature than that and a better person than that. That he raised you better. It could have been anybody,, I would say, people get jealous when you have the spotlight 24/7 or for various reasons and are coming up in the world, blazing trails and honestly certain people and situations such as this whole thing have been terribly distracting. Maybe they are not even jealous, they just do what haters do. They hate. It's hard being , , Sookie, , etc. etc. It's not always romantic, in fact it's excruciating to see those I care about the most hurt the most. Yes, I know I did hurt him but it was only after extreme provocation and anyone who is keeping track of the story, can vouch for that. And I feel I would have made a better step-mother /friend to you than her because I know what it's like to be in that position. I have had my share of awful step-parenting in my own life and know exactly how it's suppose to be and not suppose to be. I myself have a mom who has lived far away so I know what it's like to miss your mother and that no one really understands that. That is something he and I and use to talk about in depth a couple of decades ago, me being a step-parent. I always wondered why he asked that? When I had no idea of his love for me and he was a only a mentor and friend. You know how to reach me if you want to talk to me more. I will never argue with you or try to undermine you or take your dad away from you or anything away from you. If all I ever get from him is what he and I have now, I will be fine and happy. I know it's hard for you as well as others to believe that I am happy because maybe you so wish it weren't true or maybe because I am not wealthy, but I am very happy. Both my parents are alive and , I have family, I have my brain and talents galore and I am very smart and driven and your dad loves me. Galore! And those things are priceless treasures in my heart. I am still the new kid, my star still rising, and that, you cannot change. PS, I know you may continue to write hate mail. I forgive you if you do, and it makes me stronger and more greatful for other things in my life that love and support me and makes me work just a little harder and believe in myself just a little bit more. Housewives looking sex Iroquois Falls Ontario